jesus! Life sucks. School starts in 1 month and thats the most exciting thing in my life at the moment. Sadly. I'm feeling kind of depressed lately. I feel like I've lost contact with everyone in my life. Except Kevin. I suppose it's because he is the one person I tell everything to. It would be hard to feel detached from him. I haven't spent much time with anyone else except Kevin and my two little brothers. It's going to sound pathetic but my 6 year old brother is my best friend in the entire planet. The one person who makes me feel smart and beautiful and tells me he loves me and misses me everyday. He begs me not to go to work an leave him. Bah! I almost give in too. He's so darling. He is always hugging me and giving me eskimo kisses. I told you it was pathetic. I dunno. I need a boost. On the plus side, I'm getting a puppy. A Shih Tzu. So cute. It'll make up for the fact that I can't have a family quite yet. I'm young I know but all I ever wanted in life was to fall in love and have a family. But alas, I have to wait 2 more years when I can afford a baby. 2 years isn't long though. I'll be a nurse then, yay! But the pull is there and I think maybe the puppy will make up for it A LITTLE. Not much though. errr... anyways. I'm sitting here in my Pjs with my Red Sox hat on my head, wishing I had a baby. Jesus Christ! I'm sad.